yeah...soooo....ask me how my lesson went tonight.....it sucked!! man, i can't believe how bad it was....but i guess i deserved it, huh? after i was done, i just wanted to crawl up into a hole and hide. i'm so glad there weren't many kids there to see me flounder, flail and FAIL!! and i don't mean to whine about it (b/c i really do deserve it for putting off planning my lesson until today), but i was seriously feeling good about my lesson this afternoon. i mean, i woke up early....studied the various sections of the NT that spoke of Jesus feeding the 5,000...came up with some pretty decent points...came up with a good applicaton point...and i even made a pretty cool powerpoint presentation, and i accomplished all of this before my bible study so i didn't even have to do any last minute scurrying. but, alas, what i did not do was put much thought into the way i would start, transition and the examples i would use. i also didn't print off the slides like i should've done to use as notes....but just a couple of hours before my lesson, i ran thru the slides with some of the other leaders and i felt i knew it pretty well. but... I DIDN'T. i ended up starting horribly, forgetting every point on each slide, i jumped around from topic to topic cause i couldn't remember what was on my slides, i brought up examples that i couldn't explain very well and i felt like i kept repeating the same thing over and over....i haven't felt this bad speaking in a long time!! i almost wanted to stop in the middle, apologize and excuse myself from the room...but instead, i waded thru the mess i had made and wrapped it up as fast as i could.

yeesh...i sure hope i learn my lesson from all of this...and i don't blame God for not helping me thru it...i think i was depending too much on my abilities and not enuff on him...in fact, the only good point is that i'm thankful it was a small group, only about 10 kids. definitely not a good end to my week...